A Memoir

From where should I start???A pretty hectic day that right now I’m exhausted with emotions of anger , fatigue , extreme tiredness and may be frustation. May be once provoked I’ll either bash somebody with continuous honest words or to avoid being out of control,I will cry.

Now everybody would be wondering kya hua…why so???? Taking care of a naughty one and a half year boy leads to same kind of emotions at the end of the day .Ironically…than too I always look forward to the next day to play with him, handle him, understand him.As each day is a new day when he brings about newer challenges for me in the pursuit of his own independency. Making my whole strategies tumble over their heels in pursuit of making him a better human being , and than again I’m back thinking for newer ways. Being polite and patient is the biggest daunting task when he continues doing things which I abhor him to do. Repeated requests, distractions nothing work with him if he put his mind into something .So either I got to let him be on his way or become firm and might be at times lose temper also.hahaha..thats why now I say i have started respecting all parents more.

But this also has led that I have started controlling myself more for the things which I don’t want in my son. So now, I have to escape his eye for drinking water directly from fridge. I have to check using foul language for anybody or anything.I have to fight in a calm manner and be gentle come whatsoever may be.Really tough!!

And being patient with a naughty boy like him really needs nerve.Because he will do whatever I shall stop him to do.When I get him ready for park in his new clothes ,I just need to turn my back and then he is sitting right under a water tap in bathroom.I try to teach him to do loo in bathroom and he will nod and will tell me right after he does loo somewhere or on bed.I make all kind of new dishes for him and he rejects them as if they are the worst cooked in the world not even paining to glance them atleast.I'm running after every one hour with a portion of food and he will reject and within minutes will accept the same food from somebody else.Will ask for a thing from a high above in almirah and within minutes will want me to help him to keep it back.And if I'm talking to him, within a second he reaches somewhere up,above that I get puzzled for sometime how he reached there and how he gets such an infinite source of energy.If I'm tired its very sure that he will seldom let me take rest that day.And as such he is fine and learns things nicely but colours.Everybody knows the world is blue for him.I will keep teaching him and he keeps repeating in the end "blue".If I say plant leaves are of green colour and moment I ask"Arsh what is colour of plant leaves" he will smile cunningly and say "Blue".And I'm "God..how do i teach him".

Yes its really fun.At times tiring but worthwhile learning as I always say.Children make you forget the world and realize, make you amazed at the creation God has created.They are defintely God like because their emotions irrespective of anybody remains same.Not an ounce of jealousy,ego,anger and sooo pure ,happy that that they are the best teachers and an instrument to realize the God and your parents worth.

Trust Vote

Our government won the trust vote. Newspaper, news channel, people gossips and discussions everywhere the topic is same. Surely, lots are happy with it as we will be signing the nuclear deal now.But,all are defintely saddened by the happening in the parliament which we saw on TV. It was if our worst nightmares have come true.MP's being horsetraded.

Whatsoever it is , we deep down know that its not easy to survive in politics and being a gullible fish when surrounded by sharks everywhere. And, if caught you are gone.So,understanding the trade secrets is important. But it is not arguable, that a person needs to be honest to his work and the people and definitely trustworthy with a demeanor to reckon up.

I’m saying all this because somewhere from yesterday I have become very compassionate for Dr.Manmohan Singh. A person, whom, I always respected for his conduct, honesty, intelligence and humbleness. A person, whom, you can look upon and be proud for the association . Maybe, I’m little partial to Dr.Manmohan Singh but his honesty and humbleness always make me feel related. On Monday, I saw a person who was being smashed by allegations for corruption, lack of performance, mis-conduct and whatsoever. And, I was trying to read his face amidst the drama. A forced smile, a glum face as if his reputation and years of hard work is trotted in front of him. A lone PM who has his party men, colleagues flocking to a person near him [Chairperson of UPA] for every minor discussion. I was wondering how he must be feeling??? At times you have to bear repcurssions for certain deeds and than have to accept their outcome too. The deed could be as noble as you wished but with it brings its own outcomes. Also, if you have jumped in the sea in the arena of sharks , you have to become like them to handle them to survive. But it’s imperative that you don’t lose your qualities of fish .Though the harsh environment will need lot of work, self-confidence and a belief to be tolerated and then made to move slowly, patiently according to your own whims. In then end,I really loved when I listened about the scathing remarks he had made in his speech about the rival parties and their people. A thing which you don’t expect from Dr.Manmohan Singh. A person who is a gem of intelligence and humbleness to backfire like that. So,time teaches you and he did that utilizing the opportunity but I missed his speech due to those irritating MPs.
If you have jumped into the fire you got to tolerate the bruises but your inner manner will help to survive the ordeal and come out of it unscathed. Might be the purpose of life but it needs a lot of determination to change thinking and your way to survive while holding the inner principles and beliefs intact.

Arsh is a year old now

Arsh got a year old.Aah at times it seems the year has been soo long since taking care of Arsh ,and the other time it seems time has fled in a wink.
He is growing fast.These days he is trying to walk so his efforts are to balance his steps though he can walk calmly holding my hand.And the feeling watching him walk is defintely beyond expression.A small human being who was not even able to hold his head is getting ready to take on the world.But yes he is little late to walk...curtesy the winters due to which we don't let him try a lot and moreso he doesn't has patience to take little steps and thus prefers to crawl fast and take the thing which he wants.Arsh learned to crawl by the end of his seventh month.So was always running after cars,shoes,and all the newer things coming in his path.At the same time he had started standing taking a support also.A difficult phase since he would fall a lot never being able to approximate which step will hurt him.So dear Ma'ma had literally got mad.
Then the month long break in Arsh nani's house was fabulous.Learned how our parents dealt with us,and might a understanding to control the things.That phase also helped me to understand Arsh as a person.How Arsh understands what to do and not to do by gauging my face reactions.An awesome experience.
Now, Arsh's undertsanding is increasing.Its quite fascinating that every animal looks to him a boo means doggie.He enjoys throwing things down n then seeing the reaction and the sound.A menace as he wants to keep things from where he took them..and gets quite stubborn for that.Distracting him from something is really a task..swearly.You end up feeling ki lets give him that and have a peace of mind.And my mind says hey you cannot get fooled down.Every key is a car key for him by default and if you test about the things learned,he will just show them by turning his eyes towards it.Lazy or may be intelligent not to utilise his energy in lifting his hands to point towards it.And defintely moody that he will say hello,bye etc according to his mood.and if somebody brings some gift...God instead of wishing or atleast giving a small smile...Arsh will embarass us by putting his full attention on the gift not even blinking his eyes...aah
I think , now the real calmness n parenting starts .Quite a tedious task as today's children are really naughty.We at our age used to be sooo good,innocent..and i have our parents affidavit for it.And now...no words.But is really cute when he knows cars,key,tea,moon and keep mubbling maema,bookiya in his loudest pitch.
The funniest portion is his dad...poor chap has to work all day in office and has to work again after getting back to home.His weekends are more hectic than weekdays curtesy Arsh and his Mom.Arsh in his usual self doesn't want to sit for a minute and Arsh's mom wants rest and has to follow up lot of other things too.So Arsh with his dad making him on his toes always....with his grandparents following them in a bid to help .Quite a scene.....to laugh about.And the best part whenever i'm irritated with Arsh's dad ....now i can have a sweet revenge in form of Arsh...wow what a relief.Arsh's dad cannot dare to mess with me.
But yes the real parenting will teach us a lot and will make us respect and love our parents more....who defintely really tolerated us for sooo long and remained patient for that.